Going Alone

I always prepare a checklist before the sun rises. Before first light, I have a plan. The list has two columns: one for work on the left...

A strange thing happened yesterday. I was standing at the water’s edge after my evening swim. Just watching the sea. When suddenly I...

I met with a specialist M.D. yesterday who told me I was wrong, and that I shouldn’t be feeling pain where I claim to be feeling pain. At...

Softypapa seems to be back. I thought I was done with that guy, moved on, become someone else. Yet, the more I prepare for Japan the more...

At work now everything seems like it’s coming to an end, which feels premature, as I still have fifteen months. I got a new project to...

It dawned on me yesterday. This time next year I won’t be here. And I’ll be alone again. And I won’t have any home. And nearly all my...

It’s dawning on me now the significance of what I am planning to do in giving up my home to live in my car. I really need to begin...

I was sitting, meditating, upon the sand at dawn. Early morning. No one nearby. I was seated ramrod straight. Eyes barely open. My loose,...

Yesterday’s decision was enormous. Choosing to give up my home when my wife and daughter leave next spring moves the dial forward half a...

It was 8:05 PM yesterday as my mouse cursor hovered over the Send button. I paused, and took a deep breath. This was it. My last big...

I met an enormous stingray yesterday, at least three times bigger than usual. I was down at the bottom of the sea, diving under a big...

Six months. That’s how long Yumiko and I will be apart. Yumiko will have just half a year to establish our new life in Japan before I...

I’ve decided to not use the CPAP machine which my doctor prescribed for me. I’m going to call the company today that sent me the device...

Today I’m free again and can go back into the sea. The wound in my side is fully healed and my damaged leg is much better. However, I’ve...

Intervention! Yumiko and I were intervened, stopped in our tracks, prevented by our daughter from making a big mistake. I was sitting in...

I’m nervous about today. Today’s the darn day. The day we might decide to buy that old house in Japan. Picking a place to buy now feels...

I was up late last night to tour the outside of the farmhouse with Yumiko and her family. The experience was strange and tactile. Like...

I had a conversation yesterday with Emily which I’d been waiting for since she was born. It was while Yumiko was cooking dinner, and...

Less and less. The stress of work is slowly fading away in the same way that the stress of university began to fade in the months before...

We’re moving our daughter out of her dormitory this weekend. Finals are done and another year of university is complete. Emily will stay...