Going Alone

I’m holding my tongue now more and more at work, minding my words, husbanding my thoughts even, biding my time. I’m still working as hard...

Age sixty feels a little like arriving at the front of the line at a roller-coaster. The line here’s been long and winding. The park’s...

After work yesterday I swam far out into the ocean, alone where the water was blue and clear and deep. The sea is chill now like Autumn,...

I always prepare a checklist before the sun rises. Before first light, I have a plan. The list has two columns: one for work on the left...

A strange thing happened yesterday. I was standing at the water’s edge after my evening swim. Just watching the sea. When suddenly I...

I met with a specialist M.D. yesterday who told me I was wrong, and that I shouldn’t be feeling pain where I claim to be feeling pain. At...

A daily mountain to climb. I’ve expanded Objective number two “The Good Use of Time” of The Good Life creed to include the idea of one...

Softypapa seems to be back. I thought I was done with that guy, moved on, become someone else. Yet, the more I prepare for Japan the more...

I’ve stopped daydreaming. It’s the strangest thing. I’ve also stopped planning, largely. And that’s strange too. I feel like a man in a...

Ultrasound today to find out what’s up with this walnut-sized thing inside me. That’s in the afternoon, while I have a difficult meeting...

My walking has changed. I used to walk like I needed to be somewhere. Not so much anymore. Now, I walk like I’ve mostly already...

As I age, especially these last few years closing in on sixty, I perceive an interesting gap widening between my body and my mind. It’s a...

A nice thing about growing old is the gradual lifting of the weight of responsibility. It’s a challenging change however, if there is...

During our evening walk yesterday, Yumiko and I discussed the online business she plans to run from Japan. She’s up to forty-three...

It’s becoming harder now to engage deeply at work. Everyone suddenly seems so young. They have mortgages and young kids. Or they’re...

This new and fast-growing lump in my body has so far only distracted me from my unwarranted ideas of the future. And that’s a very good...

Ailments are starting to pile on now—as expected, I guess. I’ll need to take half a day off again today to go check something new out....

Yumiko is moving faster than me into her new life. She’s found what she plans to do and who she wishes to be and has decided how she will...

My days have begun to slow on their own. As I’d aged from my twenties through my fifties it seemed life slowly sped up. But now, things...

I’ve begun to stop waiting for retirement. What this means is that I’ve begun enacting my new way of life now, while still enmeshed in my...